the walls getting higher.... in isolation i die
been a long week.
and i found out i am so good,and dont even know it.yep!!
works been drivin me crazy but im so drawn to it. there be many voids to fill and work has always been a great filler. feelin agigated lately and i dont kno what to do.
met wit some friends yesterday evenin and we went out for coffee and gossip..to a restaurant that specialised in nothingness. we spoke a lot about work. i dont have anything else to talk about(i like to work, i like my job, i just wish things were fair, but thats racism for you). and the girls threatened me. "we wont go out with you if u keep payin" {sue me}. hey if u dont wanna go out......
i was feelin somewhat ill dis whole week. i havent had time to recover, attended office d whole week though after i found out i could stand .but then thats how im built.
last week im told not to hate the world so much. and not to hate myself. i dont hate myself, i just dislike a lot of things, hmmm, notetoself:ignore more often. maybe its not the world i hate but the world i kno. and i kno i definitely dislike what i see. dystopian reality in an egalitarian dream!! hardy har har!! last week also had to go face to face. and i came out on top. but that still didnt change the fact that what happened was not right. im not right all the time, but when i am , I AM! deal with it you loused up idiots!!
great news this mornin, actually this afternoon, my friend Vinita got a lil baby boy.the strange part is theres this word (hyatt = life)stuck in my head from sometime last week. and guess what she calls her.....we spoke for quite a while. she may come down to India for a few daze. we got a lot of catching up to do.
and finally for all those who want to quit their job but dont kno what to write....
Dear Sir/Madam,
Subject: Resignation,
I Love Your Husband/Wife.
Thank You......... ...
GOD so rules!! truth be told here, i lag behind, disappointed and feeling condemned and angry, but HE sure knows how much punishment i can take and then HE pulls me out like nothing has happened and everything is sorted out. i may not be religious in a way conventional, ive had my share of x-file experiences with GOD, but what HE did for me this week and i asked HIM because there was no way out but a gun, and HE was there. HE WAS THERE!!
been a long week.
and i found out i am so good,and dont even know it.yep!!
works been drivin me crazy but im so drawn to it. there be many voids to fill and work has always been a great filler. feelin agigated lately and i dont kno what to do.
met wit some friends yesterday evenin and we went out for coffee and gossip..to a restaurant that specialised in nothingness. we spoke a lot about work. i dont have anything else to talk about(i like to work, i like my job, i just wish things were fair, but thats racism for you). and the girls threatened me. "we wont go out with you if u keep payin" {sue me}. hey if u dont wanna go out......
i was feelin somewhat ill dis whole week. i havent had time to recover, attended office d whole week though after i found out i could stand .but then thats how im built.
last week im told not to hate the world so much. and not to hate myself. i dont hate myself, i just dislike a lot of things, hmmm, notetoself:ignore more often. maybe its not the world i hate but the world i kno. and i kno i definitely dislike what i see. dystopian reality in an egalitarian dream!! hardy har har!! last week also had to go face to face. and i came out on top. but that still didnt change the fact that what happened was not right. im not right all the time, but when i am , I AM! deal with it you loused up idiots!!
great news this mornin, actually this afternoon, my friend Vinita got a lil baby boy.the strange part is theres this word (hyatt = life)stuck in my head from sometime last week. and guess what she calls her.....we spoke for quite a while. she may come down to India for a few daze. we got a lot of catching up to do.
and finally for all those who want to quit their job but dont kno what to write....
Dear Sir/Madam,
Subject: Resignation,
I Love Your Husband/Wife.
Thank You......... ...
GOD so rules!! truth be told here, i lag behind, disappointed and feeling condemned and angry, but HE sure knows how much punishment i can take and then HE pulls me out like nothing has happened and everything is sorted out. i may not be religious in a way conventional, ive had my share of x-file experiences with GOD, but what HE did for me this week and i asked HIM because there was no way out but a gun, and HE was there. HE WAS THERE!!
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