I stand in front of mirror, look into my eye and ask myself.
Who am I? What have I become? Is this me?
I ponder on my thoughts and my actions. They don’t seem
right. They are neither correct nor justified. I have become sick of myself.
Sick of my brain. Sick of all those neurons and synaptic connections that
decide my neural activity. I wasn’t like this. That kid who used to be
happy-go-lucky, spontaneous, smiling always, where is she? Why it is that now
my brain is filled with jealousy, hatred, envious thoughts.
Is that I have an alter ego?
She is clouding up my mind. She is gaining control over me. Her impure
thoughts make me crazy. Head feels clogged up with lot of negative thoughts.
Mind seems unbalanced. Can’t take better decisions with these thoughts in my
head.
I m trying to curb these vestigial thoughts. It’s difficult,
they hurt me. I am hurting myself. Its killing me.
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