There is a sense of defeat and depression in the mind. An intense bearing of doing nothing.
Doing nothing to be doing what one is doing. Doing nothing in the midst of work and circumstances. In existence. There is a pulling in particular direction without cause. A direction that does not necessarily have any given direction or path.
Why is it so ?
Is it the lack of opportunity. Is it lethargy towards life itself. What is it. An uncertainty about everything sets in. This is not good. Mentally, physically or creatively. I must get involved soon. Idleness bastardizes the mind and thinking.
It makes me irreverential to everything that's happening around. More time is spent in dissecting and bisecting issues that have no connection with my life or anyone elses. Such a waste of energy and time.
It was another restless day at work today.. ha .. I am getting quite accustomed to this routine !
So I did something 2day after returning home from work that I had not done for months. I sat in the sun and drenched myself with Vitamin D (hehe). A sudden chill had overtaken me at work in the middle of last night. The sun bath made me feel so nice and refreshed.. Had a good day's sleep and now back to the normal routine of getting ready for work (dis tym of d day sucks)
On life and mortality. On trust and commitment. On ill will and exposure. On profile and vulnerability. And some concrete fixtures appeared. They were mine and were harsh and not conducive to balanced debate. So i refrain from making it public.
But I shall indulge .. someday.. this blog is my space and I shall never fear to fill it the way I desire to..
Doing nothing to be doing what one is doing. Doing nothing in the midst of work and circumstances. In existence. There is a pulling in particular direction without cause. A direction that does not necessarily have any given direction or path.
Why is it so ?
Is it the lack of opportunity. Is it lethargy towards life itself. What is it. An uncertainty about everything sets in. This is not good. Mentally, physically or creatively. I must get involved soon. Idleness bastardizes the mind and thinking.
It makes me irreverential to everything that's happening around. More time is spent in dissecting and bisecting issues that have no connection with my life or anyone elses. Such a waste of energy and time.
It was another restless day at work today.. ha .. I am getting quite accustomed to this routine !
So I did something 2day after returning home from work that I had not done for months. I sat in the sun and drenched myself with Vitamin D (hehe). A sudden chill had overtaken me at work in the middle of last night. The sun bath made me feel so nice and refreshed.. Had a good day's sleep and now back to the normal routine of getting ready for work (dis tym of d day sucks)
On life and mortality. On trust and commitment. On ill will and exposure. On profile and vulnerability. And some concrete fixtures appeared. They were mine and were harsh and not conducive to balanced debate. So i refrain from making it public.
But I shall indulge .. someday.. this blog is my space and I shall never fear to fill it the way I desire to..
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