26/11 - Memorial!!! Zara Hatke Zara Bachke.. Yeh Hai Mumbai Meri Jaan

I am not much of a News person, because stupid though I may seem, I have always been more interested in the news / happenings of friends and family, this I intend to change - lets say its a major part of my self renovation...

” Three years after 26/11, the safest person in the country is, ironically …….. …….. Kasab .. “

More than the above there is very little to convey on this day. Three years ago we sat helpless and angry at what unfolded before our eyes. Years after, we show solidarity in our feelings, remember those that sacrificed their entire existence so we could be well enough to remember them, make patriotic and emotional statements and get back to doing our job.. All those vulnerable spots that had been attacked are now fortified positions of heightened security, amphibious armed vehicles, commando units in force one attire, march pasts, hours and hours of dedicated broadcasting, editorials and pictured quotes from celebrities, an abundance of candles and prayer, placards of denouncement and strong will, politician bashing and more ….

But …
In a darkened corner of a home that has lost the light that they looked forward to, that loved and cared for them, that gave them hope and strength, that gave them the security of life .. has been put out permanently ..
And no amount of sympathy shall be enough for them that are left behind with this unhappy and sad occurrence. Mumbai has the spirit and the will to get back under all circumstances, but do they that succumbed, that suffered, that lost, have the will to get back ? This vast and colourful metropolis brings opportunity, an opportunity, that if not taken by ’forelock’ shall either never return or worse, go to someone else !

I feel fortunate to be a part of dis born free generation. We've never had any inkling of what it means to be suppressed and oppressed. To be in possession of your own home and to be told that it does not belong to you. But many of our countrymen, our brave countrymen did and did what they felt needed to be done. Their work results are what we today enjoy, and may we ever do so.

Tomorrow shall be another day, another issue, another front to capture or aspire for. Life’s cycle shall take over and grind us into its unending circle of time -

Living in Mumbai, All of us in some way or the other are associated with people of all castes. To me as a person, a human is good or bad irrelevant of his caste, creed or religion. It always amazes me how we generalise adjectives with communities and the effect it has.

How an incident in a remote village can trigger riots in the Country when a good incident may well go unnoticed ! Is it a media fault? Well who is to say, personally I do not watch the television media much because it depresses me. I would rather watch a SRK movie or d K series of Karan Johar joint family saga and shed tears on the happily ever after. Naive I know! but I think the world won't miss one critic who doesn't want to know - I can not say I don't care even I am not that audacious...

I believe.. Yes I Do

I Believe that the world is beautiful, that there still a ray of hope and in abundance if we can only let go ! I wouldn't call myself superstitious but at the same time I do not like to tempt faith. You know not that dare devil who will blaspheme and challenge the supernatural entity we want to believe that makes things work for us.
Lots been happening, I am on a learning curve, a divine one at that! Never knew that there could be relationships at a level where nothing at all mattered except unconditional giving! and not even minding it.

There is a new foodjoint in town ! Yummilicous for now, wonder why I felt very drawn to it, haven't even seen the place yet, weekend planning done (jhol) Lets see how things go! There is a lot of positive in the air around me (touchwood) and its easy to get carried away, but I am holding on for a change! Like i said Life is Beautiful !

Yet another day!!!

There is a sense of defeat and depression in the mind. An intense bearing of doing nothing.
Doing nothing to be doing what one is doing. Doing nothing in the midst of work and circumstances. In existence. There is a pulling in particular direction without cause. A direction that does not necessarily have any given direction or path.
Why is it so ?
Is it the lack of opportunity. Is it lethargy towards life itself. What is it. An uncertainty about everything sets in. This is not good. Mentally, physically or creatively. I must get involved soon. Idleness bastardizes the mind and thinking.
It makes me irreverential to everything that's happening around. More time is spent in dissecting and bisecting issues that have no connection with my life or anyone elses. Such a waste of energy and time.

It was another restless day at work today.. ha .. I am getting quite accustomed to this routine !
So I did something 2day after returning home from work that I had not done for months. I sat in the sun and drenched myself with Vitamin D (hehe). A sudden chill had overtaken me at work in the middle of last night. The sun bath made me feel so nice and refreshed.. Had a good day's sleep and now back to the normal routine of getting ready for work (dis tym of d day sucks)
On life and mortality. On trust and commitment. On ill will and exposure. On profile and vulnerability. And some concrete fixtures appeared. They were mine and were harsh and not conducive to balanced debate. So i refrain from making it public.

But I shall indulge .. someday.. this blog is my space and I shall never fear to fill it the way I desire to..

If Wishes were

Being mummy's girl, I have made my fair share of admissions and confessions to her. It, therefore, surprises me when I hear of my mom though a very content person right now (touchwood) still at times tells me that when she looks around youngsters, she wishes she had provided (or rather lavished) me with better materialistic things, events or posessions for want of a better word.
While I would have to be hypocrite not to admit the feeling of being deprived of parties,movies and such for a better part of my actual "fun" years. But as I look back these seem inconsequential somehow. SURPRISING !
With a big decission to be made in a few days and the days zipping past, I often than not wonder what the coming days are going to be like, what time and life have in store for me. Time will tell of course. But I wonder !!

The Bike & The Bottle (on the way to Murud-2006)

One of those moments, which I vividly remember and hope to do so till i breathe my last :) to the countless people who cross our paths, some faces,some voices some just virtual thanks to the mighty. I wished a friend for his b'day and he said I wasn't the same, wonder what that means ? To justify I don't think any of us ever remains the same, we change and we evolve, between relationships, between people, between circumstances. The honest to god, honest response that would have been practical and right a while before would seem rash and irresponsible in a matter of mere seconds or minutes.

Excuse the sombre note today, but lots happenning with life personal and professional, frustrated to the core, and knowing myself I can never be a mute standby(er) :D Give me the grace God today, to do the things I can and shut up otherwise ZIP UP :D

Expectations:)

Good day today, if I want it to be ! I met Fr.leslie my favourite person and guess what i'm impressed again (Mr.perfect that he is).... The most handsome person on the planet..Simple pleasure!

Saw Fr.Leslie, and am always amazed at the greater person he is become, if I do manage to get there by the time I am 40 I would be oh so grateful.

 Speaking to a friend I looked up to all my life the other day, I challenged him with a question of why it was wrong to expect from those to whom we have also given unconditonally. I find it outrageous when people say that it takes just one instance to break a relationship built over the years. I find it unfair, if it can break in a snap, it was not worth it at all.

Whatever I think even within myself, sounds like bragging so I will just leave it be. Picked a word of God today and it read :i'll hold your hand - more than enough for me. Read an email forward that said if the truth can hurt it is better to withheld it ! Where I have always been someone who dissects and tries to investigate and thus litigate most of the events in my life.

It is so surprising that while most of us reserve the right to get busy or get concerned with our own and theirs, they expect us to be there, be in touch and also rise above the occassion :) so here's the dilemma, accept them or do not expect ?

Finally!!!!

Yayyyyyyyyyyy. Yabba Dabba Doo.
Finally i've made it to the bloggers world... an online avatar..............

Feeling great