Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who get burned" -- Budha
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Read the above put up on a board on visiting a priest, and liked it, probably among the 100 other million things that we hear, like and decide to put into practise and fail. Wonder why ? what goes wrong. Being LENT keep receiving a loads of emails of forgiveness, and loads of other spiritual awakening and conscientious reading material. Feel guilty at times of the ill feelings I harbour for some reason find it difficult to forgive. For some reason, I feel or rather sense a change in my self, my person - notwithstanding the confusion, na that's still there, of why's and howz.......that goes along life long i think !! But have learnt at least a wee bit to let lying dogs be :)
Had a good time at work today!! Weather's (a)changing and I love it........Welcome SUMMER!



Dat's my Bro and Me



......... I think back and distinctly remember a couple of weeks back mourning the mundane and routine uneventful week after week that kept passing and the Good Lord decided to teach me a lesson. Been suffering from knee pain, Mum being away from home to Mangalore, and the icing on the cake - I started a terrible terrible  headache (migraine)......moral of the story no more whining, each day as it comes is welcome.....the less eventful the better !

Was waiting at a pediatric's clinic with someone the other day and there was this toddler there,he so resembled Rohan (in his childhood) his haircut, his antics and otherwise. I was amazed and that triggered off memories of my lil bro and me. How much we had grown. I realised that in the rush of life,we were missing out on actually enjoying our little moments which have all too soon passed and just remain memories.

Today is a new day, Mum is back, I am myself again and the day started off by attending the Sunday mass and breakfast from Vienna's.......what more can one ask for SMACK :)

and it scares me :( - had been to the hospital  today, just preventive measures and the prick of the needle was uncomfortable, not excruciatingly painful just plain discomfort ! But it sets the wheels of the grey matter in motion, thinking of those around who were in pain, suffering. Some who make it some who don't.........

Death which was before a distant reality has been to us at close quarters, now the conscience was to believe more and more in the Supernatural.....Some day will be my going home day.... wonder how and wonder when.

Been Watching this TV serial for quiet some days now, titled "Naa Aana Iss Des Mein Laado" of a Lady who had a compulsion for killing - rich, successful et all but still...........alter ego and the works ! what stunned me more than anything else that this "story" "script" and the fact that this system of killing the girl child born and unborn did exist in our society or what ever else you wanted to call it was conceived by a human in, living amongst us !!

Lent is here, and somehow within, I am feeling a tiny bit grown up. I am really proud on my weight loss - whether a kilo or ten, doing it all on my own :)

For now..........repent and return !!

It comes down to that one word - MEMORIES !! Good ! Bad ! Important and Not Important, but there nevertheless. Took a trip down memory lane yet again around those who have been there all my lives. Guilt assaults me of not being there for them when they most need me. Their face lights up when they see us arrive and we enjoy the stolen moments, that are given to us as a gift. To revive the innocence, the hopes and the fears. The first time I rode a bicycle, the rains and so many more, the yummy panipuris at pipeline(Sakinaka)patices from Merwans. Faloodas' courtesy my friends.

Talking of my beautiful Mom - I love the Naiveté, the way she enjoys treats, her shopping sprees. I wish and hope at her age, I am able to enjoy that. Had a great weekend. Window Shopping at Bandra Linking Road, Played carrom like after ages, and wondered at how you just feel so free in what's called the sportsman spirit.

For now, feeling blissful - going to be 25 this year !! :) SSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHH

Need A Change!!!

A lot has been hppening, a lot of work in progress, which I believe is apt to lead to frustration. Or perhaps its just me that I expect a closure on everything that starts. Even in the personal lives of people around me there are a lot of changes some good and some not so good.

There is an this "wait" in the air for all of us, as if this year has something up its sleeve for all of us. I guess sometimes its nice to look forward without knowing what is in store. Too Bored and fed up of the routine of going to work but that again is changing :)

Rite now - Waiting !!

SURPRISE...

I am not much of a "Surprise" person it usually freaks me out ! more because, something which might seem like a pleasant surprise for you might not be one for me!
This instance however, was a Surprise, was it a pleasant one ? I can't honestly answer that - being quite frustrated with the professional life at work an incident  made me resign out of anger and frustration I wasn't overwhelmed or teary eyed! I'll delve into that bit of soul search a little later.

There's a good one month more to the new voyage though, a voyage god willing to an unknown undecided life ! Spoke to a friend about the incident at work and putting down my papers and der she was again with a chill pill, she said to relax as the world does not end at it, life goes on and it will. So i'll just be good and take one step, one day at a time...Nevertheless, for the gesture - Thank you to  a dear friend!